Hello gorgeous baby girl, It is driving me mad how to everyone outside the family everything is like normal, Ok so yes everyday the sun rises, the days carry on and we ALL smile and laugh and then sun sets and the moon rises, That's all the same and nothings new there but I tell you what is new since the day we lost you - every smile hides true sadness, every laugh hides complete emptiness, every conversation camouflages thoughts of you, every breath taken hurts and every beat of my heart feels like I'm being stabbed, You had only just turned 1 year old and was in scuba for 1 month so I had only had you at home with me for 11 months but you filled the house and made it feel complete, I still walk through the door expected to hear your cry or one of your machines and when I don't it feels just like the very second I lost you, I lay in bed looking where your cot was and where it still should be, So yes lots of things are still the same but for me so much has changed, BUT ..... I MISS YOU AND I LOVE YOU and I promise you that WILL never change Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx